Thursday, October 17, 2013

Sharp Cheddar

How funny could you be without me? Clear adhesive apoxy atop worrisome catacomb endeavors. I am marbled by defeatist attitudes. You?

Need that ant colony to vacate my sleeping mattress. Small ones, medium ones and other sized. Regular insecticide does not work very well. Sure, it's strong and irritates but only temporarily.

Perhaps the infestation is a living metaphor. A metaphor for my need to stop procrastinating and start completing my masterworks. I don't know how many more moments are available but this moment is indeed unique and important. Just like melted caramel lies.

Get the bullet to disown our presidential influence. Money fucks us over as policy manipulates we the people further and further.

Feeling absolute; uncertain. As sure as sure as sure as a turkey meat pot pie with huge chunks of knowledge. Didn't I mention before, ages ago, about how I had once been confused by certain passages in the pathos outlined biblical pretention?

We feed on dementia just as much as ham & cheese sandwiches without mayo. Oh I do know what I'm typing here! It is you, you that has no flipping idea how gravity sticks each individual to every other individual!

It is within fictional romance novels that we begin to plunder the teachings of our predecessors. Identity is another metaphoric derivative.

Discuss the accidental accident that is our nation. We are the (thee) successors of a generation of slave traders and owners. They used to beat 'em with big long dirtied sticks and poles. Some of 'em died, most of 'em cried and begged for mercy. But oh let's not forget how sweet and juicy and delicious the apples, melons and corn turned out.

Thank, thanks. Great, grateful. Abnormalcy, normalcy. Ease, dis-ease.

In the deli I contemplated beat poetry. Welcomed the possibility that I may have been a prophet in another life. Then I purchased a pound of sharp cheddar cheese.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Star Language

We aren't liable to be held accountable for most things done wrong today. That just seems to be the new normal in society. Come to think of it... it's been the norm for quite some time.

If you are going to meet me halfway than by all means meet me halfway, sir. But don't do it on my account. That faithful woman is not your property but she does care a great deal for you. You are blind to it and to her.

I've told you many things before. I've spoken to you about a variety of different topics. The history of the French. The history of the Prussian Empire. Sociological experiments involving multiple participants. Art appreciation and convex theories. It only means something to you if you allow your being to absorb it. Indefinitely.

Modesty often finds us when everything else has begun to shift right before our eyes. Yes. Like cellophane deniability; ruminating over divided dimensional output. Just to translate archaic Latin adjectives back to the original star language.

Thursday, October 10, 2013

The Common

The common man
Is endangered
This illusory bind
Is what
Melds our will
To insignificance
Without
Permission

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Truth & BS

Truth is hard to swallow; it promises life altering revelations. Bullshit is easy to swallow; it promises nothing but more bullshit.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Constant Cut

I'm constantly
Constellation
Constantly
Evolving
And And
You are Too
Stop relying on
Evil personalities
To
Keep you secure
You needn't
Vanadalize
Your soul
Just to justify
The pills
And
Powerful
Assholes
I'm constantly
Evo-lving
One, one day
You'll fall down then real-ize
You are too, too are
Cut the nights in half & dance

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Materialism (quote)

"The problem is not materialism as such. Rather it is the underlying assumption that full satisfaction can arise from gratifying the senses alone." - The Dalai Lama

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Love and Desire (quote)

"The man who has intercourse aggressively and uneasily will produce children who are irritable and untrustworthy; but if the intercourse is done with great love and desire on both sides, then the child will be of great intellect, and witty, lively and lovable." -Leonardo Da Vinci

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Breaking Ground

Breaking ground, we are breaking ground. Have another cup of premium brewed coffee and crack open your mind's eye. Do not expect to receive a gold medal or trophy for your efforts. Truth is rarely rewarded.

Its not a cynical observation. Vation. Ha, I was gonna' write down something about that fifth girl who dumped me in the middle of a romantic cruise across the atlantic but decided against it. That's exactly what she'd want me to do. I ain't gonna' pine over nobody anymore.

This whole construction is an evolutionary process unto itself. Know it, digest it, make love to it. At least it's guaranteed to be STD free. Ha, ha.

Two days ago, as I picked my nose, the sky looked particularly spacious. It caused me to think about all those people out there who have no food to eat or warm bed to sleep in/on. On, in.

I empathize with the plight of all sentient beings. Perhaps, a little too much. But hey... what the heck do I know?

I ain't into superficial longings. I may have them but I don't like 'em. Why should I care for shit like money and fame??

My hair is long right now. Past my shoulders, certainly. My facial hair seems to sway on its own. It is obvious to me that my appearance throws people most of the time but I think I like that. I like shocking people even if only for a few seconds at a time.

I'm a nice guy who doesn't like being a nice guy but at the same time I don't give a crap. Though, I do meditate as often as possible and peer behind the illusion that is our reality.

(Problems are meant to be explored.)

Exist exist exit ex-ist.

This is all a fantastical construction.

Monday, September 30, 2013

Anything!

Some believe Ernest Hemingway was some unique prophet disguised as an alcoholic writer. Me... I don't know about that. Would be cool if it were true but no one can really say if it was or wasn't. Just like with most things.

I'd like to believe that in a couple of decades, or longer, people will be saying something similar about me and my work. If they don't... fine. I just get the strong feeling that it is a real possibility. I don't believe in much but I do believe in possibilities.

Why don't most people believe in possibilities? I suppose there's no clear cut general answer.

A few years back I started paying more attention to the evening sky. I don't know what prompted it. I just all of a sudden felt like watching the stars one evening.

Those giant balls of gas hardly get the recognition they deserve. I mean... they are capable of existing for thousands or even millions of years! Could you imagine what that must be like? Of course not! We humans are only capable of seeing and believing what's right in our direct line of sight.

If you could live to be say oh 1,000 years old how would you spend most of your life? If your answer has anything to do with accumulating a vast fortune or any other sort of material gain I am sorry to say that I personally believe your answer is far too one sided to be even remotely "realistic."

We're talking about 1,000 years here! 1,000 years old! As it stands right now the average life expectancy of a semi-healthy human being is between 75-78 years of age. Yet, somehow most people still find it necessary to cling to very superficial and impermanent things.

Life is indeed short. We ALL know this! But the majority of us also blatantly choose to deny this fact!

So, how has mankind spent most of its existence? We've spent many centuries conquering one another, oppressing one another, violently abusing each other, starting wars, causing famine, causing disease, causing general disorder and mayhem within our own cities etc. etc.

I guess it's no real wonder why we have trouble believing in possibilities. Though, I do believe it is a serious issue that should be discussed at great length with every individual.

Granted, that's just my personal belief and/or opinion.

I do, however, also believe that multiple choices/possibilities are available to us in any given moment. Yes, it is ultimately up to each of us to make our own decisions. Just remember this:

Every choice we make leads to more choices and options and introduces us to people who must also choose which path to follow. And their choice may or may not be based on your choice. If we cut out all the middle work we will find that ALL paths are interconnected and interdependent.

One person can make a difference but an entire planet of people can accomplish anything! ANYTHING!

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Crust

Oh the mighty versus the weak. A poet knows what's what. The populace would much rather blow each other to pieces than hug and forgive minor offenses.

Before we know it - 1,000 years doesn't come soon enough. And we all transmute back into the Earth's crust.

Friday, September 27, 2013

We All Gotta'

We all gotta' love each other! You can deny it all you want and say it is a "crazy" idea but it won't change the fact that we all just gotta' love each other!

One More Life

Dante wishes
Dietro
Ombra perfection
Christ's
Science project
Recognizes
Demon-strations
Of
Angelic abstracts
The face faints
Circular
To centre
These jealousies
Mean to distill purity
As constellations
Come to life
All human beings shape
Their own demise
Which leads to
One more Life

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Smell Evolves

Was a man with a guitar
Little notes swapped intuitive
Learned languages phased
Out-side got spit on
Set on fire
By insane christianity
Bags of caramel crunch
Roughly smoothed lovers
Hags threw up their lunch
Gin soaked affluence
Dumpsters, peering in boxes
Cardboard warms him
Stars in sky
Spell out liberation
The world is unappreciative
Consider trash, garbage
Influential instantaneous
Was a man / with a truth
The music smell evolves

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Self Involved

A rich emporium of eagle satin pleasure troves of unfamiliar dyslexia feels normal. Stood by her only broken thumb and wrist to douse the pain points with my mental minutiae. Funny, funnily space is a farce not far from fortitude. Speaking up for the loneliness inside us all.

The tubes are light like pancakes and butter and not syrup. Science makes believers into cynics: purposeful fortuitous. Jesus, the back hurts. Say it will mimic okay.

Each day the sun sparkles in particular for whorish mannerisms. Say, I said that that would find you in unknown states of cholera. Pandemic, handle your broom pushing allegory. Turtles have lived for centuries before us human beings. I am quite certain they will outlive whole generations of peoples.

I cannot find a reason to ask out carnality and bring some home with me. Why? What for? Carnal delights are only delightful once in a plaid moon. If, if, if. If at all.

For what washer there was no doubt over the matter of a waxy hearted life filled and unfilled with lots of cello cellophane teardrops. Fangs to scrub with toothbrushes. Silvery stars crossed uncrossed vague delusions. Get her some special treatment, lotion.

(Aware of lifetime, a lifetime gone by.)

What is time? What is tiime? What is you? What is me? What is we? What is why? Why is why?

Another bossy window whore. She denies the cultural existence of another other follower who begins to dabble in the black arts. Arts of good-ness subtle wings fanciful the trees, trees, trees try reconnecting us with the truth of the matter of factual evidential screamo skies. (!)

In a very particular way I chased after her afterthought. The sidewalk felt firm yet agile. She said she was once a lioness in a previous life. I believed her only because she scribbled fiction on a plain paper plate. Connect dots; the dots connect every single thang thing.

Delineate the process. Belittle the essence. Sanctify the wholeness.

An estimated reading time of one minute and nine seconds is not a goal. 1,111 bodily counts down the melee. Exruciating in detailed spring memories surrender it all to the lasting symbolic deafness.

Egg sandwiches. Egg salad. Fried egg sandwiches.

Nearest molecules build us up in every possible vagueness. Absent minded I emplore the use of deoxy ribonucleic acid in my work. See it, sing it, want it, be it, it it.

We are our own victims. Victimized desensitized.

Self involved confusions usually involve rotating patterns of starlight. If at all, all.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Mirror Man

Saw a man in the streets lugging around an oversized mirror. You see he used to be a very successful stockbroker. He had it all: money, women, cars, vacation homes & plenty of recreational drugs at his disposal.

Then one day everything changed for him. He made one bad investment after another and lost millions! He defaulted on every loan and had all of his material things sold off at an auction. He was devastated. He tried to buy back his stuff but all he could afford was that mirror.

It once belonged to his grandfather and had been in his family for hundreds of years. His grandfather gave it to him on his deathbed and told him, "This mirror is very special. It can bring you lots of good luck or lots of bad luck. It all depends on what kind of person you are."

He did not believe his grandfather initially but now that he has lost almost everything he doesn't know what to believe. Therefore, he remains determined to hang on to that mirror for however long it takes him to get back his fortune.

Even if it means lugging it around for all eternity.

www.ryanandrewloera.weebly.com

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Forward Forward

Forward, forward, sideways across. She carries her only daughter across the river known only as River Hardly. The words to describe such an event are numerous and un-nameable. One must be careful not to pursue a lengthy description when trying to amuse the masses.

But the masses are stupid, unfortunate, desolate & lonely creatures of habit! Unlike that woman with her only daughter, still but stained by her wanting happiness. Illusory things mutate choiceless advantages.

A Fact That Should Be In ALL History Books

Nikola Tesla was working on a way to provide 100% FREE, clean & renewable energy to ALL of mankind! When JP Morgan found out he hired some thugs to destroy his laboratory and burn it to the ground. Tesla's free energy would've had far reaching applications. Including powering all forms of transportation.

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Complete

You do not make sense when compromised by allegorical fantastical fables created by transnational capitalists. Sure seems like the second coming of rice pudding in your suede pants but oh you couldn't be any more right. The sun is a beauty of which we doubt retroactively.

People call me Bryan but my name is not Bryan! Is it really so hard to pronounce RYAN?! What is that they are thinking of the live long day? Oh wait.... I guess the latest newest same old smartphone is more important than committing my name to memory. It makes sense, yes. No!

But whatever. Whatnot. I promise to only care about my own interests so long as people keep forgetting my name. Please... please do not pity me. I don't mean to sound pitiful or decompressed. I only wish to make my frustrations known and unknown and then if time allows... known once more.

Stare intently down a darkened well and you will only begin to understand a tenth of what I am alluding to. Our biological makeup persists, further. Furthermore, when will all these self important pop stars stop showing off their genitalia?

The human mind mimics that which we inhabit. By which I mean our beautiful planet. I do not wish to go off on some long, long descriptive romantic tangent here. Maybe I should, but I won't. No, not yet.

We've all got desires. You know what I mean! Desires are those things that we really don't need but yet somehow we feel like life would have no meaning without them. And I don't just mean superficial things like money and steamy sex.

Let's face it, if you don't know what desires are then you probably shouldn't have them. Complete.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Mutual

Life is a mutual folly of which we do not understand. These are the accepted terms we agreed upon before entering this vortex of beautiful chaotic convergence. It is fun, it is functional.

I cannot stress enough the importance of not stressing over the minutiae. It all makes clever, clever sense now. See it in your prefrontal cortex of shame. Begin to explore that which you have no control over. Over, over the rainbow of plain spoken banalities. Greatness abounds here.

We learned to walk at a young age for a reason. We learned to form sounds into things called words for a very great purpose. Why then is it so hard to believe that our existence exists for a reason? Why?

Do you enjoy being fooled by fallacies and liars? Of course not! I know it seems easier said than done... I know! But that does not make it an impossibility.

At best it is a mutual improbability (possibility).

Saturday, September 14, 2013

This Civilization

This civilization
Glorifies
Violence
Too much
Much
Too
Much

Bell

Woman at door with child selling chocolate bars for $1 for her son's baseball team. Baseball? Who the hell still plays baseball?

I purchased one, a Milky Way bar. Makes me think of the galaxy we inhabit. I believe there should be an Andromeda bar or a Crab Nebula bar. The entire Universe should be paid tribute.

People don't give a damn. They say they do but they don't. Sure, they're busy with the day to day stuff but none of that would be possible if the Universe didn't exist.

It may be bad - it may be good. Whatever you choose to call it it's still a part of the entirety of existence. This you mustn't deny!

If you try to outwit existence you will only end up creating more negative illusions to get caught up in. Catch yourself now before the final dinner bell is rung.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

No Longer Seems

Now that burger king has "invented" the french fry burger and Apple is running out of ideas.... My own idea for left handed pants no longer seems ludicrous. :-)

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

REVOLT

REVOLT
Like you
Need it!
Revolt!
Revolt like you
Want
It!
Take no
SHIT
From
No one!
Revolt
Against
Hypocrisy
Revolt
Against
Reality
REVOLT
Against
Anything
That
Drags
You Down!
You've gotta' REVOLT!
You've gotta' REVOLT!
REVOLT!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

We are REVOLT! (My band)

Here's a pic of us rocking out in our practice space. I'm on the left. Al-Drums, Blue-Bass, Ryan(me)-Guitar & Frank-Singer(not in picture). We are REVOLT!


Important

Time
Is not
Important
...
Life
Is
Important

Monday, September 2, 2013

A Play

It is all a play. We are all a part of some grand idealized mystical play. It is called life and we play out our respective roles even when we don't feel up to it.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Before 2 am

Before
The clock
Reads
2:00 am
I scratch
My beard stubble
Some words
Enter
My head
Some other words
Escape
Logically
Then grow
Their own
Intelligence
It is a sight
Hard to describe
A whole new
Civilization
Is birthed
Out of little more
Than
My verbs, adjectives
An entirely sufficient race prospers
They prosper before
2:00 am

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Red Orange Riboflavin

Red
Orange
Amuse-ment
Black
Surrender
Opaque
Revolutions
Yellow
Euphemisms
Vain pink
Threat
Level
Beige
Blue ice
Blue mind (s)
Continental
Euphoria
Shades of brown
Doctored up
Lines of
Turquoise
Green viral
The spleen disdains lament
Gold mint leaflets
Distribute progressive riboflavin

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Exist or Not Exist

We
Exist
Or
Not
Exist
There's no
In between
Not yet
Not quite yet
We
Fail
To
Recognize
That every second
Is ours
To create
The whole
The entirety
Only
Exists
Because we want/need
It to Exist
We Observe
We Manifest
Simultaneous
(Existence)

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Mewl Avocado

Mewl
Syndic
Yourself
Pills righteous
Configurements
When that dog
Chased
Me
Away from
True love
I went
Up to the
Stratosphere
In
A pumpkin
Ears bad begged
Thousands
Dead
How can you dare to say
You are not a gym
When clearly you are
Indeed a gym
Am I right to assume
That this sandwich is
Lacking avocado slices?
Creatively.

Saturday, August 24, 2013

Pay No Mind

Pay no mind to the naysayers. They only wish to pull you down to their negative state of existence because they feel lonely and lost. What they don't realize is that they too will inevitably stumble upon that which makes them happy.

Friday, August 23, 2013

Swing

Swing
Catharsis
Swing
Dimension
Don't mention
Allusory
Vitamin
Dances
Going up the pole
Because your
Heart ate
The
Vessel
That contained
Every
Organ
Of massive
Importance
Write a word
Draw
A clown
Interpret
Frowns
Upside Down
Swing the way you want!

79

79
Degrees
The weather
Changes
Gradually
Not quick
Enough
76
Degrees
I am
Absent
Minded
Absent minded with a purpose
Recollections
Keep me
Company
I read all these
Books written
By Dead Poets
Dead Writers
Dead Philosophers
They wrote what they needed
To Write & Said what they wanted
Wanted to say. (Aren't we all dead?)
72 Degrees and I am Alive.
(Half)

Beer Can

A
Crushed
Golden Miller beer can
Reflects the
Sunlight
Up and through
My bedroom
Window
Who tossed it there?
I have no clue
Perhaps, a neighbor
Perhaps
A wandering drunk
Or jealous brokenhearted
Lover
It lies in my backyard
I can vaguely read its
Letters, red letters
LIFE is visible
Across it
Some alcoholics often
Mistake Beer
For Life
I do understand their conundrum
But come on!
At least use a recycle bin!

Thursday, August 15, 2013

We Exist Eternally

We are multi-dimensional beings existing eternally throughout the entire flow of space-time. This is more than factual because if it weren't... we'd be far more limited in our thoughts and actions; far more.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Electric Hymn

Haven't
Got
A doctrine
To cling to
My musical
Attributes
Absolve (me)
All resolution
Haven't got
A guru, no scripture
To lean on
My guitar speaks
The Words (for me)
Loud and Clear
It says all
That
I NEED
To SAY
The feedback
Hums
Hums its own
Electric
Hymn
Can't you hear it? Shut-up and listen.
It is infectious.
It can't be contained.

Magnetic Star

Magnetic
STAR
Reveals
Its
Hidden
Power
We are this
Beautiful
Construction
Born
From
The Destruction
Of
An infinite
Number
Of luminous
Celestial
Occurrences
We needn't ignore
Ourselves (beauty)
We gotta' explore
Within the depths
Of human consciousness
Because our magnetic nature will
Continue to grow and inspire! !

Outer Outerspace

Perhaps we were
Never really
Really
Really
Really
Really
Men of mankind
Juice
Tropical thoughts
Humid speech
Falsifying
Human seas
Waffles
Pineapple
Seeds
Sour your conscience
The people of fortune
Feed each individual
With
Reused
Recycled
Synthetic
Essence
Machines are you
Machines are me
Machines
Are three million
Charismatic
Dwarves
Sending us messages
Of hope
Healing
From
Outer outerspace

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

An Encounter

As
She
Pinched my
Flesh
I smacked her
Ass
Our bodies writhed
And melded
Her moans
Caught me off
Guard
Her breasts I
Held Them
The smell of lust
And lavender filled
The air around us
The bed under us quaked
And pounded against
The purple painted wall
Sweat from my brow
Dripped onto her pelvic region
She smiled and laughed
Before it ended I felt invincible
For a very brief moment... I was.
That's when she admitted -
She faked it.

Monday, August 12, 2013

Do You Remember?

Do you remember
That time
We were
Remembering
That time
We were
Remembering
Another
Time
When
Dinosaurs
Wore
Denim vests
And drove
Mint condition
Cadillacs
With big pink
Furry dice
Hanging from
The rear view
Mirror?
No? Oh wait a sec.....
That was just
A Dream I had.
Remember remembering it?

This Skin

This skin does not define me
I own nothing
This skin does not define me
I am crazy
This skin does not define me
I wander the stained streets
This skin does not define me
I do not know how to be loving
This skin does not define me
I abhor superficial minutiae
This skin does not define me
I care not for your opinions
This skin does not define me
I shall peel it back and
Peel it off
This skin does not define me
I am an illusion and so are you
But you don't give two shits worth
This skin does not define me
I am not upset
This skin shields my regret
I loathe it but it protects me
This skin does not define me
It accentuates
My Best

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Strawberry Wars

Strawberry
Wars
Over evolution
Debate
This unsatisfactory
Invention
Brought on by
Misguidance
For an infinite amount
Amounting
Towards more
Aimless
Past times
Reflecting a light that is
Consistently
Denied
Pay no attention (none)
To the hours
Perception
Is not
Limited
Space is incapable of
Reasoning
With a warring species
Sit on your ass and contemplate
The vastness!

Vegas Tomatoes

Vegas
Morsels
Feed
Propaganda
Ate
Some
Fish tacos
Laced
With
Turpentine
Is it
Safe
To speak
To a
Promiscuous
Cactus
Even though
You
Know
She loves
You (?)
Too many tomatoes
Drip life
It is sanity we must
Stay away from.

Friday, August 9, 2013

Emanations

Emanations from the stars reach down to work their healing magic upon all of us, filling all the cracks of our personal universe with hope.

Dry Butterfly

Dry
Leary
Vaccinated
Vaccancy
Mountains move mobile
Magistrate
The herd
Tends toward
Heredity
Brain shocks
Short violent
Obsolete
Obstacles
Grasp the country like wine
We all die
Factors differ
The soul's
Path
Pledges no pledges
Whether time plays
However life strays
The punchline portions out
Pain, deeds, disorientation
The same, sameness scares
Social butterfly allegiance

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Broken Carnivores

Broken hollow
Hollow
Two ton
Carnivores
Describe
The cause
Weak-ness
Abides
By
The ever
Obliging
Inner
Voice
Stale
Poker chips
Ameliorate
What
Little
Fear
Reminds these
Claustrophobic
Vandalisms
It is energy in us
Interconnectivity glues
Us to Us

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Freedom

"People demand freedom of speech as a compensation for the freedom of thought which they seldom use." -Soren Kierkegaard

Life Understood

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." -Soren Kierkegaard

Thursday, August 1, 2013

This Poem

This poem
Struggles
It struggles to
Define itself
It struggles to
Rhyme itself
It struggles to
Remake itself
This poem
It is not a
Riddle
This poem
It only feels
Struggle

Reading Brings Us

"Reading brings us unknown friends." -Honore de Balzac

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

When Another Makes You Suffer

"When another person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeply within himself, and his suffering is spilling over. He does not need punishment; he needs help. That's the message he is sending." - Thich Nhat Hanh

During the Night

During the night is when I amuse my mind the most. It calls out to me and tells me to learn and relearn many historical anomalies. Not everyone admires my creative process. This I understand and am aware of in its entirety.

What must I do in order to get people to actually read the many things that I write? Perhaps I should cause a big riot or promise some sort of powerfully enchanting incentive. Bullshit! It won't matter what I do.

Sure, I am that visionary that most of us only hear about from other visionaries. It still makes no difference; statistically. Vanity tends to fare better in modern society.

Know it all, know it all. We love to believe we are smart enough to know true wisdom when confronted by it but really we have no clue. We live in the information age but we ignore all of the useful information and take to heart the fluff.

Oh the subtlety vanquishes our needs objectively. Only because we pursue the gold and abolish the spiritual. This is no lie.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Stink of True

My feet stink
Like
Chocolate wine
Addressed my
Header to
No one faker
In particular
My throat spits up
Your marbled
Defecation
Your child shall now
Use it
And turn it into
A kind of
Decoration
My chest contains no gold
I threw it out
I deliberately withdrew
All of
My fictional
Assets then took a
BIG DUMP ON THEM
By which I mean I dropped excrement
Excrement! Now they stink of true Democracy!

Universal Consciousness

We are the collective stream of Universal consciousness.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Birthday Cake

Birthday cake and ice cream are considered the norm. But so is war, poverty, famine and disease. I'm not okay with this! I'm not and neither should you!

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Frankfurt

Frankfurt
Daze
He
Abandons
His
Potential
The child
Bears
His
Name
Motivation
Displeases
Him
Inspiration
Alludes
Him
Karaoke nights
Consume his soul
Jukebox stylings
Devour him
Whole

Functional Gold

Silver acknowledgement
Always
Knowing
Revolting
Sets of
Arms
Displaying
Dysfunctional
Congress
Water gives
Us
Up to
Each other
We needn't
Remind
The sun to
Shine (at all)
We're not illegal
Not quite
Yet
Not quite
Now
The weather
Report
Is a bastardized
Version
Of
Weather
Our
Memories
Stew
Reliable
Redundant
Prophetic words get ignored
Superficial
Pop stars
Are looked up to
And
Worshipped as
Enlightened
Individuals
All is not silver yet
All is functionally Gold

Monday, July 15, 2013

Effigy Powdered

Effigy
Powdered
Impending
Imperfection
These cells
These days
Pregnant
Prehensile
Prejudice
Indulge
Eat a
Croquette
Fallow
Explosions
Cross
The
Ecosystem
Roaming
Upon chord cloven
Mammalians

Makin' This

Makin' this
Place
Dismal
Like
Jelly crossed
Romantic
Affiliates
Who prefer
To
Plague
The social
Sciences
Because
Our righteousness
Is
But a farce
Never made much
Sense, less
There be a blindness
To Mock & Confirm

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Never Accept

Time for things to change within the system. It's been screwed up for far too long! Seems like all it does is cause us to hurt each other and perpetuate needless violence. We'd rather kill each other than help and love one another!? I for one do not and will NEVER accept this paradigm.

Friday, July 12, 2013

Social Dirt Love

Dirt love
Heart shaped
Computerized
Thoughts not spoken
Rarely
Medium well
Taste the spit supplied
By our only
Father/Pope
Love dirt
In the soil secrets are buried
Rare-ly
Does the pain speak
To Saints (!)
(pushed your ass against steel dumpsters.)
The social part of life
Only mimics networks
Of once great
Civilizations
Dirty fate awaits
While we go on living
Living and supplying
The world with fascism
Gotta' legalize our-selves before
Anything else!

Thursday, July 11, 2013

A Race of Miscreants

Musical music
Takes
Flight
In spite of
These
God damn
Closed off
Mindless
Minds
Peering down into
Wonderless
Wonders
Nothings
Grieving over past
Experimental
Excrements
Call it order! Call it life!
Brutal features
Cut us in Half
Then right down into
Fractions of fractions
And so we falter. And so we cry.
Musical interactions shall out-live us
Ours is a race of
Magnanimous miscreants

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Limitless Magic

When you examine yourself it is best to dig deep, deep. So freakin' deep that everyone else around you just seems to fade into obscurity. They'll think you are nuts and insane at first but the majority will ignore you.

Let them ignore you and let them scream at you all they want. It is not you they fear. It is their own magnificence that frightens them to death. For they know that once they unleash such limitless magic they can never go back to living in a state of perpetual sorrow. And some people are just more comfortable with negative states of existence.

Limitless magic abounds!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Pants Blue Denim

Apple pie
I
Need not know
WHY
Picture
Obligatory
Washers
Wearing blue
Pants
Neither jeans
Neither denim
Shall make
This
Warrior
Succumb to
Capitalist
Tyranny
Freedom
I
Chant
Freedom
I
Need
Paralysis
Beckons forgetfully

Sunday, July 7, 2013

This Limited State

This limited state of consciousness is on its last cycle. Be still and accept its demise as yet another leap forward for all Humanity. Allow new more compassionate ways of thinking and being to wrap around you and infuse your soul/body with ever more expansive rays of light and love. Do not fight it. Do not fear it. It is meant to be.

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Ignorantly

She raped
Herself
She is
Infinite
Timelines
Unfolded
Rapidly
And
Fatefully
The worry she conjured
Faded
So effortless
So
Graceful
Bright platitudes
Melted
Then
Rolled
Off her back
Within the time
It took to
Comprehend ecstacy
She raped herself
Forcefully; ignorantly

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Assures

Some such careful carelessness consumed us whole and plainly. Tell us no lies. Just pull up your platitudes and drown your sorrows if need be.

We were not at all careful but regarded each other as anomalous day trippers. Familiarity reigns in consciousness.

Galactic involvement involves each of us! Every one of us!

We belong to each other and each lover. The cosmic eternal light illuminates our journey forever and all possible ways.

Subtlety assures our future.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Protagonists

We're all the protagonists of an immensely long, immensely layered novel titled Existence.

Saturday, June 29, 2013

APERTURE NOW AVAILABLE FOR FREE DOWNLOAD!

My novel APERTURE is now available for FREE download! I really just want everyone and anyone to read it. Please go to: www.ryanandrewloera.weebly.com

Download it, read it, share it as much as you'd like! :-)

Thursday, June 27, 2013

No Use To Criticize

"It is of no use to criticize humanity. Like all creations, it survives its critics. The only interesting thing is to try to understand it or, at least, appreciate." - Richard LeGallienne 1905

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Pieces of Vitamins

Soft shells
Pure
Pointlessness
Shift
The bone dry
Attitude
Vehicles will
Cross
All valleys
Eventually
Eventual
Destitute
Ploys
Plot
The
Demise
Meant for
Materialism
end the crisis
end the fascism!
End The Division!
Crack every single shell!!
Their Agenda must vanish.
Cut up pieces of Flags
Provide vitamins.

Spear Shield

Distortions
Deserts
Fake cacti
To
Conceal
Concoctions
Whilst each
Warrior
Forgets
His spear
His shield
His armor
Just to
Become
Vulnerable
And
Perhaps
A bit
Unruly
Did not
Your voices
Echo each verse
Enchant your soul?
Atoms & molecules forged
Our Passions.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Our Keeper

We've danced
Before
The gesture
Slams
We've donated
Our live-r
Well before
Some summer gift cancels
Out defeatist
Gloom
We choose
Choice
Bass trumps
No truth
Body must reuse
Voice
Listen
As
Life evolves
We've all been
Messianic
Before ego caught us
Isolation was the teacher
Resilience was always
Our
Keeper.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Slit

Veins open
Sight
Unseen
Bleak
Fun
Reigns
Melted
Angelic
Figures
The
Configurations
Please
None of me
Desperate
Governments
Harm us
Spy on us
Deny us
Peaceful
Locales
The flag is now anonymous
Constitutions are useless parchment
Slit the judicial, the executive veins.

Hair Blonde Long (Legs)

Hair
Blonde
Long
Spectacular
Feet
Concrete
Wages
To feed
The
Unknown
Bastard
Children
As unhealed
Scars
Spill
Blood
On
Sidewalks
The same used up
Excuses
Become holy
Doctrine
We tried to feed each other
But the pain was too misleading
because
The rain
Creates
Puddles
Which drip
Into
Ditches
Which
Lead
To
Raw
Bridges
Raw
Nerves
Connected
To toes
To
Her notes
and on a node
We found
The tumor
She'd created
It was the source
Source of retribution
Long legs wrap around
Significant legends

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Cloud Atlas

Cloud Atlas is a MUST see movie! It may be hard for some to get into right away but eventually each story interweaves so seemlessly that you begin to identify with every character. It has everything: action, romance, drama, mystery, comedy, sci-fi elements, historical speculation, truth and universal wisdom. It also stars Tom Hanks & Halle Berry. Watch it on a laptop with headphones if you must (that is probably the best way to view it.). Go rent it now! Not later. Now! It's available in any Red Box kiosk.

Friday, June 14, 2013

Madness Purports

Madness
Supports
Factions
Of
Fractal
Worry
Girl
IN
A
Box
Midnight
Liar
I set
To
Spell
Out
What the world
Failed
To
Smell
Homely - half
Your past is requisite
Admit to stumble
Madness Purports

Form of Living

15 year old
Solitude
Transcension
Is the
Only
Solution
Spirits know
Dreams
Are
The
Truth
Truer forms
Of
Dismissal
Have
Never
Existed
Not in this Universe
The waking
State
Is not so much a state
As it is
A Form
A Form of living
Living
Physically

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Justified (quote)

"Forms of madness, bizarre habits, awkwardness in society, general clumsiness, are justified in the person who creates good art." - Roman Payne (Rooftop Soliloquy)

Monday, June 10, 2013

or publisher/distributor. Final decision will take a while. If they don't like it I got dozens more ideas to pitch to them.
Gonna' make 15 chapters of my novel available for free download since not everyone can afford to purchase a copy. It is currently being reviewed by a maj

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Spiritual Yearnings

What Power
Wield You
So Righteous!
Take away Shame
Doubt No More
Stalk no one
But Your
Shadow
This existence is in fact
Cyclical
Worlds revolve - rotate
Around the Brightest
Of Brightest
Lights
Within
Within
What Power
Manipulates
You! So vigorous!
Align with Positivity
Align with Spiritual Yearnings
All evil influence has become
Benign and non-effective
Align With Your Own
POWER!!

Blossom

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." - Anais Nin

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Existence Is Important

Why must all of the minutiae be so ever present and ever perplexing? Like some analogous time bomb of affluence and delusion. Tends to be that way most days and nights.

It's no big deal. Right? I suppose not. But I've never been the type to suppose much. Especially, during the 21st century of human existence.

As I watch time fly by me and the stars change their position, I am brought back to a much simpler state of mind. The state in which I thrived during my childhood. Things seemed better, felt better. And whatever I didn't understand I just allowed it to fester and die out of its own volition.

Many other things would occupy my mind. Things that were much more positive and magical to a kid like me. So what if no one else saw what I saw or felt what I felt!

Being small has a tremendous impact on one's perspective. It makes the entire world look bigger, grander and very important. And indeed it is! It always has been!

As children we live with a profound sense of wonder and unparalleled amusement. We then have to suffer greatly as those qualities are gradually, but quickly, torn away from us upon reaching adulthood. And so we then spend the rest of our lives deluding ourselves into believing that we're okay with it all! Okay with working demeaning jobs for very low pay. Okay with having most of that pay go to Uncle Sam. Okay with paying taxes. Okay with being promised that tax money will go towards revitalizing the community but rarely seeing such a promise manifest.

Okay with being dependent on oil. Okay with starting wars to acquire more oil. Okay with producing more iphones, ipods, ipads than we know what to do with. Okay with allowing Chinese factory workers to assemble these devices for extremely low pay, lower than what we consider low, and hurling themselves off the factory roof when the poor working conditions become too much to bear.

Okay with allowing people to become homeless. Okay with allowing people to go hungry and die from starvation. Say what you want to about adults but there is absolutely NO reason ANY child should ever be allowed to go hungry or starve to death!

Now, what I've written thus far is really just the tip of the iceberg. There's still plenty more to ponder, consider, analyze and re-analyze. As human beings we ignore too many pressing issues. As conscious beings we deny our own consciousness. As sentient beings we deny the imbalance that plagues us. Worst of all, we deny the ever-flowing love and compassion within each and every one of us!

How much longer will we allow this to continue? It CANNOT be allowed to continue or else we will all be subjecting ourselves to our own extinction. Ultimately, only WE have the power to turn things around.

Even if we don't, it is likely that the Universe will somehow reset and realign mankind's trajectory. For you see.... we are important. The world is important. The Universe is important.

Existence is important.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

There's no more brilliant light than that which follows complete darkness.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Perfection

Do not try to achieve external perfection. You could drive yourself mad attempting such a feat. Instead, awaken to the perfection you hold within. Only then will you be at peace with yourself and the Universe.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Picasso Dream

Had totally awesome dream in which I met and conversed with Pablo Picasso! The older version of Picasso. I don't know how it occurred but all of a sudden he just showed up in a black car with a chauffeur. He asked me to join him so I did and we went to some market where he purchased six sausage and salami logs. He spoke mostly Spanish so I only understood half of what he said. He had me carry the logs while he spoke and looked through one of my sketchbooks. He was silent for a while then laughed and smiled as he flipped through each page. Then we came upon his estate which was a large beige/white stucco looking mansion. We climbed a staircase to the main entrance and I watched him slowly walk inside. I handed him the logs and he smiled then said, "Oh. It was your Uncle. Your Uncle thought I should meet with you." And with that he disappeared into the mansion.
I tried to follow him in but when I got inside there was no sign of him. I saw a nude model sitting on a large sofa in the living room area. She looked like she was waiting for someone. I saw a dog running around and a boy chasing him around the entire first floor. I then went up to the second floor and peered into one of the rooms, a couple was fast asleep on a comfy bed. I didn't know how to get out from there so that's when I woke up.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Connection

Crippling
This
Mass misguidance
Swore off
The negligence
Of strangled
Shadows
Projecting
No Authority
Frigid (air)
Silence
Contains Sympathy
Bolsters the connection
Between
Male / Female
Indigenous to Identical
Identities
Sweetener Sweetening
External Prejudice
We forgive not
Forget Not
Misuse society's laws to our
Own deluded - superficial Benefit
Cripple It!
Cripple It!

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Only So Much (quote)

"Even those with unspendable fortunes only have one mind, one mouth, two ears, two eyes and one pleasure station. There's only so much fun you can take." - Tibor Fischer

Beauty Divides

Beauty
Divides
Beauty
Progressions
rarely
Rhyme
democracy
Unstable
Denies
The
Fruition
Before
The
Fable
lies and facts
Fictions and lessons
It has always been
A game of wits
Wits and empty promises
Beauty sorely needed forever -
Time
Beauty
Divides

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Monday, May 20, 2013

Conch Ralph

Oh
Who lives in a
Mango
Underneath
Juarez?
Conch Ralph
Octagon Trousers
Who plays with
Stray dogs
And
Drinks lots of
Vodka?
Conch Ralph
Octagon Trousers
Conch
Ralph
Octagon
Trousers
Conch
Ralph
Oc-tagon
Trousers!!
Yes!

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Friday, May 17, 2013

When You Buy

When you buy into
Society
You buy into
Fascism
You buy into
Transitory
Importance
When you buy into
Capitalism
You buy into
Falsehood
You buy into
Conformity
You give away your
Identity!

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

U2 Lyrics

And so we are told this is the Golden Age
And gold is the reason for the wars we wage

Friday, May 10, 2013

Love and Be Loved

Too many of us are afraid to love and be loved. Now is the time to do away with all preconceived notions and expectations and just love. Love whomever/whatever you want to Love.

Everyone Is Beautiful

Everyone is
Beautiful
The God
Within Us
Is within
All Creation
All physicality
Everyone is
Beautiful
Everyone is worthy
Of Abundance
We mustn't over-think
Or analyze too much
Everyone is
Beautiful!
Beautiful!

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Kill Your Television

An illusion is an illusory thing. Division running rampant, or so we think. People often seem surly and agitated whilst traversing the depths of their own subcranial subconscious. This is no allegory or feeble fable like all the rest.

We think because we must think and never stop thinking. Such a feat is impossible or maybe more like improbable. That's what I would say if I were surrounded by shallowness and drunken fools. Gotta' pass the time somehow. Mustn't feel obligated to entertain entities I have nothing much in common with.

Maybe if I were a sailor or militia man of sorts it would be slightly easier to relate to the chasm of most human miseries. Only slightly; slightly. Still... I would find it difficult nonetheless. It's all a blind two legged race. A race that no one could ever even hope to win. Yet, we all try anyway.

Do you ever day dream of visionary goals? I don't mean stuff like acquiring vast sums of money or getting an all over tan. No, I mean stuff like being able to fly high up in the sky like Superman! Also gaining the ability to manifest just about anything and everything you can think of. Within reason, or not within reason.

To each his own. Ha. That's one of those laughably engaging phrases that gets tossed around so much so people don't even remember its origins. But I suppose we do live in a time when nobody really gives a rat's ass about the origins of anything. It's both a good and bad philosophy to live by.

Let truth be truth and lies be lies. That's what I like to say... not out loud. Though, perhaps I should start saying it out loud. Yeah, that's all I need. To be gawked at by the rest of the insincere and insecure populace.

I read what I can and speak when I want. No one has a say in that. We're all entitled to our own opinions but none of us is entitled to force our opinions onto each other. It's a fact! Such and such is the way we must observe life's effervescence.

Illusions envelope us daily and nightly. It is to be expected to freak out every now and then. The real key is to let it all wash over you like some kind of cosmic waterfall. Then once you've allowed it to drench you and beat you down there can be nothing but sunshine to look forward to. This I know to be the utmost truth.

Look, man. Listen, man. Taste these words or be prepared to forever chase them in your dreams. If you really desire lots of gold and material pleasures then go ahead and go out there and get them. Just don't be disappointed when they don't last as long as you were hoping they would last. That's all I gotta say about... that.

Hey, man! Do you like movies or read books? I suggest you read more books, man. I mean... just in case my words bore you and don't send your mind soaring into the stratosphere. Read books. Read more books. Kill your television!

Friday, May 3, 2013

Friday, April 26, 2013

Believe (Be)

Believe. Believe in great benevolent forces. Believe in Love. Believe in Friendship. Believe in Compassion. Believe in Truth. Believe in Wisdom. Believe in Knowledge. Believe in the power of Imagination. Believe in Beauty. Believe in Passion. Believe in the Impossible. Believe in Purpose. Believe in the Transmutation of all things at all times. Believe in the everpresent warm embrace of the Universe.
But most of all... believe in Yourself.

To Enjoy

"To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one's family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one's own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him." -Buddha

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

We Don't Need

We don't need more cameras aimed at citizens. We need more cameras aimed at politicians.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Unique Can Be

I am an original. I am writing this as it comes. I am no empty headed zombie looking to be used and controlled. I am unique. I feel and think about many, many things pertaining to humanity and its many dormant gifts.

I paint as well but have not painted as much as I used to. I really should start it up again. Now, right now. Yep.

Blue and yellow swirls are what I often imagine cloaking the minds of the general public. It isn't often that they understand or are aware of this. But I do believe they try as much as is possible. Whatever that means.

I'm not looking forward to old age but I've come to accept it as an inevitability. If I end up living a hermetic lifestyle then so be it. I've never been one to frequent fascist night clubs or superficial gatherings. I know they do have some merit but only if one is seeking a cheap sexual encounter. Even then there is no guaranteed outcome.

Expectations cause a lot of turmoil. People either expect too much or expect too little. Then when things don't go their way they get all disappointed or frustrated or enraged. They make mountains out of potholes. They enjoy it.

Silly, silly people. When will they learn to appreciate what they already have? I suppose such a question can only be answered quickly and without much consideration. That and people tend to ignore rhetorical questions. Or what they believe to be rhetoric.

I am currently reading Tolstoy and others in an effort to gleen some kind of insight into the behaviors and manners of unconsciously aware peoples. I guess that itself is an expectation but I'm open to it morphing into something else.

I shall soon be 30 years of age and am glad to still be intact on this beautiful Earth. I am an original. One of billions.

My perspective and personality remain my own. Interconnected but unique as unique can be.

Friday, April 12, 2013

People

"The people of the Earth shall meet the people of the Universe." -Edgar Cayce

Impediments

Feelings of prejudice and hatred and the infliction of emotional and physical cruelty are impediments to spiritual growth.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Tolstoy

"The aim of an artist is not to solve a problem irrefutably, but to make people love life in all its countless inexhaustible manifestations." -Leo Tolstoy

Saturday, April 6, 2013

We Need Love

"We need love, we need beauty, and we need at least passing acquaintance with eternity. To the soul these are absolutes, and yet in modern life these three graces of life are values largely neglected. We reduce love to interpersonal relationship and then treat relationship as an emotional problem... The soul longs for love that is unconditional, unending and without tangible object." -Thomas Moore

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Wasteland of a Wasteland

In this barren wasteland of a
Wasteland
We profit from
Nothing
Tangible
In this wasteland
We make toys from plastic moldings of
Maniacal dictators' wings
And our minds
Oh our precious, beautiful minds
Are subjected to the most rancid
Diatribes & fluctuations
To ever be produced by
Western civility
Oh it all seems unbearable
At times
Yet we trudge onward
In this barren wasteland of
A
Wasteland
Things could be better
Things shall be better
Things must be better
Tomorrow
Than
Today
But tomorrow mustn't be
The main objective
Lives cannot be transmuted
Overnight
One generation must not hope to
Survive
And enjoy the spoils of another
Generation
Until
The last grain of sand has been filtered
And turned into
Fertile
Fecund
Ground
......
In this wasteland we do live, laugh, love
And play
In this wasteland we must not forget
Or stray
....
Beauty is within
All is
Within

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Everyone is entitled to their opinion but nobody is entitled to force their opinion onto you.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Pick

  When one picks one's nose it is often best to do so in the company of strangers. Such people usually require a certain level of escapism in their daily lives. So, why not give them what they need!

  Go on and ram your finger in that sniffer of yours. If you favor the right nostril then pick the right nostril. If you favor the left nostril then pick the left nostril. Dig really deep in there.

  I used to be able to pick my nose and eat my own boogers. They did not taste gross or disgusting. They didn't taste like much of anything. Some of my 8th grade classmates would practically bribe me to eat them.

  They would cheer me on and then make gagging sounds as if it was the grossest thing they had ever seen. They all led such sheltered lives. Locked up in their makeshift ivory towers.

  I learned a valuable lesson during my nose picking days. I learned that in order to get the biggest reaction from people.... one must pick one's nose like there's no tomorrow.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

We Live In Very Exciting Times

We live in very exciting times! We can send information around the world in the blink of an eye. NASA has confirmed that Mars did indeed once have a habitable environment. A cure for cancer and a cure for HIV are currently being tested and developed. Chemtrails are trying really hard to prevent our planet from evolving but are ultimately failing. The looming deficit appears to have no end in sight but may just result in a major shift of our political landscape. World wide protests are taking place in an effort to bring about a greater awareness of the financial imbalance that has plagued the country for far too long. December 21, 2012 came and went without so much as a whimper (just like the Mayans predicted; contrary to popular belief). Massive amounts of new energies are shooting out from the center of the galaxy and are enveloping everything and everyone in its warmth.

But above all else, mankind is on the verge of reclaiming and embracing our humanity. Never before has such a monumental event taken place on such a massive scale! I for one am very grateful to be alive during such an important period of our history and evolution. We should all be grateful for there's no telling when another opportunity like this will present itself.

Friday, March 22, 2013

Entire Universe

My body is the entire Universe, all beings my heart and soul. You are no different.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Until Life Echos

Sun
Rises
Sun
Sets
All is here
All is bright
Vivid
Oranges
Grasp
The
Moon
Bold yellows
Choke
The sky
Into submission
All of our wishes
All of our troubles
Shall stabilize upon
The inevitable horizon
Delay each day
Until
Life
Echos!

@

Friday, March 15, 2013

Like A Shadow That Never Leaves (quote)

"If you speak or act with a calm, bright heart, then happiness follows you, like a shadow that never leaves." -Buddha

Monday, March 11, 2013

Long As Martyrs

Hole
She
Arched
Phantoms
Never
Said
Love
Alas
Bad
Belabor
Crowns
Royal
Pompousness
Someone recalls
Assholes
Are
Remembered
Just as long
As
Martyrs

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Space Time

Catastrophic
Pour some scotch
Inhale oxygen
Air out
Troubles
Verse
By
Verse
In
Short
Get
Drunk
Read Whitman
Get
Drunk
Traverse
Space
Time

Friday, March 8, 2013

Happy or Sad

Reluctantly I tried to make her adore me rather than love me. She slapped me instantaneously and without regret. Two times I told bold faced lies but only because the truth would have freaked her out so intensely and dramatically that there would be no recovery from it. Truly.

And forget about pleauring her to the point of no return. No, she would not approve of such madness. To her pleasure is mostly derived from extended periods of celibacy and finger pointing. I'm not lying here.

On our anniversary I did my best to show her a good time. I made reservations at some fancy pants French restaurant but when we got there they said that I made no such reservation. I spoke to the manager but all he did was furrow his brow and roll his eyes. So, I punched him square in the jaw and tore up his fancy pants suit.

We were escorted out of the place as the manager shouted French insults. My love she looked like she was about to cry but instead she slapped me and jumped on my person. She licked my face and kissed my neck. She seemed very excited.

So we skipped dinner and went straight to dessert. Ha, ha. I'm not a big fan of inunedos but they do serve a purpose. So, after having hot sex in the back of my accord, she said nothing to me. I couldn't tell if she was happy or sad.

I guess she was mainly disappointed because that was the last time I saw her. Really it was. Well... it was the last time she knew I saw her.

Ten years later I spotted her at the local mall. She was holding a crap load of shopping bags and looked very happy. She was also being embraced by some tall muscular guy with a mustache. I stood about four feet behind them; they didn't even know anyone was watching them.

Five minutes passed and some kids ran out of the toy store and towards them. They shouted, "Mommy! Daddy! Look what we got!" I watched them take each other's hand and walk away like the quintessential happy family.

Now, I don't know if I feel happy or sad.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Alive & Interesting

It's lonely being
A Freak
But
I shall not
Assimilate
Into
That superficiality
You call
Success
Damn success!
Success be damned!
You're all a bunch
Of whores and
Prostitutes
Prostitutes
Of
Capitalism!!!!!!!
I do not need success!
There is nothing viable in it
Sadness
Depression
Struggle
Strife
Confusion
These are the things that
Contain more truth
Than "success"!
These are the things that
Keep us Freaks
Alive & interesting

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Long Guitars

Long guitars
Outstretching
Miles
We speak blankly
With the Sun
To our
Backs
No one can tell us
Who to be or screw
A can of mixed
Vegetables
Is all we consume
And tomorrow we'll eat cacti
If that's what it takes
To be
Whole

Monday, March 4, 2013

The Loft

I imagine myself
And her
Living in a cozy loft
Somewhere in NYC
Cuddling up on
A well padded mattress
Eating Ramen Noodles
Out of a big bowl
Reciting poetry to
Each other
Laughing hysterically
Because we can't
Believe how long it took
Us to find love and hang on
To it
We live off
The advance I
Received for my
Latest novel
It's not much but
It allows us to
Remain secure
In our
Love nest
For a year or so
Most mornings
We make Love
Until Noon
Then we walk
Through
Central Park
And point out
All the rich
Vibrant colors
Of the leaves
We make out
In the shade
Of
A Willow Oak
Some people stare
But most of them
Smile and move on
We watch and listen
To a homeless violinist
Express
His strife
Via his
Antique
Violin
I drop a $20
In his empty
Coffee cup
And we
Head back
To the
Loft
She strips slowly
Then pushes me
Onto the mattress
Her nude form
Illuminates
My soul
As she lays
To my left
She whispers
"I wish this
Could last forever
And ever."
I kiss her
Neck
And stroke
Her hair
She falls asleep
And I....
Wake
Up

Dirty Beige

She gave me room
To breathe
I
Bought her
A
Brand new
Pair of
Purple fantastic
Heels
She wore them
Happily but reluctant
While we
Had hot sex
On the dirty beige
Billiard table

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Honest Creativity

Just watched two great movies about writers and the creative process. The Words and Ruby Sparks. Both inspire one to be as honest as possible when expressing one's self.

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Vanilla Alligators

A complete
Unknown
Peeling
Potatoes
Eating
The
Skins
While rapping
About
Old proverbs
With
Vanilla
Ice
Underneath
A chocolate
Bridge
Passersby speak fluent
Pessimism
Pigeons play tag & fart
It's time to wrestle some
Alligators

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Chocolatey Independent

Just been keeping busy with my various writing projects and art projects. I detest most of what is on television these days. The only channels I stick with are HBO, Shotime, Cinemax & the Sundance Channel. They tend to show a lot of independent abstract stuff that I enjoy.

I got a hankering for something chocolatey and so I bid thee farewell.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Good For Us

"Everything our parents told us was good for us is actually bad for us. Milk, red meat, sun, college." -Woody Allen

Monday, February 18, 2013

Classic

I'm a
Classically
Trained
Lawn
Gnome
Who
Listens
To
Dead
Disco
Vinyl
Records
On a
Recomissioned
Harpsichord
What? Yes!
I sleep in an empty
Refrigerator that smells
Of mold ridden cheese
Doesn't Everyone?
!

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Moss on Guitars

Fried
Beef
Tacos
Prophecy
Propaganda
Suffocation
A
Little
Known
Beauty
Cautioned
Me
Against
Her
Bare
Barely there
Weak mind
Unfettered abandon
Subtle as sinus infections
Gathering Moss
On
Guitars

The Mighty

Just watched awesome movie titled The Mighty. Stars Kieran Culkin, Sharon Stone, Elden Henson. I highly recommend it.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Some People

Some people need advice for advice's sake. Others need a sturdy steak knife between their eyeballs and brain. Emotional these people tend to be. Well, only because they are usually ignored by the majority of society.

Now, I only say this in order to expand upon what you may or may not already know. From the time we enter kindergarten and beyond we are all conditioned to behave in a particular manner. I don't know why they bother with such nonsense; especially when it comes to the public school system.

I used to know this homeless guy who spent his days on the corner of Wilshire Blvd. and Truth Ave. spouting off unknown verbs and consonants. Yet, every once in a while he would speak of things like Jesus Christ, Charles Manson, Mother Teresa and Super String Theory. "Why are people afraid to believe in a God? Any God?" This was one of many questions he'd shout at passersby.

At first, nobody paid him mind. I got the feeling he didn't care much for the opinions of others. And even though he rarely begged for change people would still toss him some upon encountering him.

Some time would pass before I'd see him again. Then, almost suddenly, I ran into him at the post office. He was planning on mailing a dozen personal handwritten letters. He had groomed himself nicely and was wearing a fancy gray suit. Of course, he didn't recognize me but when he saw me leaving he said, "Excuse me, sir! Would you happen to have any change to spare? I have some letters to mail."
"I'm sorry but I don't have any change or cash on me at the moment." I replied. "Oh, okay. Well how about a credit card?" He looked quite intent on mailing his letters. "Uh no I don't have any credit cards either. I don't have much credit these days." "Okay. Thanks anyway. Have yourself a good afternoon." And just like that he walked away and vanished.

Some people don't know what they need when they need it. Confused these people are.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Get Over It

I don't understand why everytime I shave my beard or stache people say I look "better". Men are naturally hairy! Get over it!

Monday, February 4, 2013

Pregnant

Pregnant
Melville
Wanderer
Mass
Distance
Automatic
Bosh
All
Tardiness
Lie
Pills

Friday, February 1, 2013

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

One Million

Had difficulty sleeping last night due to a slight cold. But also dreamt that I was composing nearly one million stories in my head. I saw groupings of words form sentences and sentences form paragraphs and paragraphs form whole novels. It felt overwhelming but engaging nonetheless.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Hello There

Hello there
Future
Generations
Please forgive us
Our
Decadence
And Greed
Went on and on
Unchecked
Do not hate us
There was no one to teach us otherwise (or alternatives)
The few that existed
Weren't promoted at all
By our governments because
Our governments chose
Profits over Humanity
Poison over Longevity
Toxins over Care
War over Love
Please forgive us
For making a mess
Of things
Forgive but
DO NOT
Forget!
Future Generations
You
Know
What You
Must Do
We too knew lots & lots
About how to turn things
Around for Good. But we stalled it all.
Materialism became our Mantra.
FUTURE GENERATIONS PLEASE
DO WHAT YOU MUST DO!!
We'll be behind You.
Guiding & saluting.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Friday, January 25, 2013

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Saturday, January 19, 2013

MY NOVEL IS OFFICIALLY PUBLISHED!

My novel, Aperture, is now officially published! Yes it is ready to be read in its entirety by the public! Click the link below for a short preview and/or purchasing info.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Ruin The World

Too
Much
Politics
Clogging up
Our
Assholes
Too
Many
Politicians
Taking it in
The
Ass for
"Democracy"
Running now
We
Ruin
The world
For
The
Better

Monday, January 14, 2013

It's Different

It's different
Now
It's Different
Now that
You have a child
And
I am
Childless
Though I am quite
Content
I still admire and
Stare at you with
My mind's Eye
It's different Now
Everything has transmuted
I wait for our selves
To evolve and collect
Enough experience and
Dust and trust and
Maybe then it won't Be
So Different

Aperture Complete

I have officially completed my novel! It is done! Almost two years of painstaking work is now complete! I am happy. :-)

Factotum

The minimum wage drudgery is not for me! Nor should it be for anyone else. I know my parents worry about my financial stability, just like parents should, but I swear no amount of "financial stability" or "job security" could ever make me as happy as my writing, music and art does. I've already tried being just another work drone and I did NOT feel happy or secure at all! Not everyone is meant to surrender to this capitalistic world.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Reflecting Back At You

If you truly despise someone's appearance or behavior it is because they are reflecting something back at you which you've yet to confront.

2 Most Powerful Warriors

"The two most powerful warriors are patience and time." -Leo Tolstoy

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Snow Cone

In the middle of January is when I lost my first original love. She had purchased a snow cone from a street vendor who only charged her a smile. Yes, a smile.

As she licked it she was brought back to a time when she was a child of only five. Her mother did not pay her much attention in those days. But usually because she was too inebriated to stand on her own two feet.

My original love she always thought of this when enjoying a snow cone or any other childhood treat. Sometimes she'd cry out loud if only to hear herself lose control.

Then one morning she finally lost complete and utter control. She mouthed off to the snow cone vendor and threw crushed ice at his face.

Some passerby interpreted this as a crime and phoned the local police. When the police arrived at the scene they saw her foaming at the mouth and felt it necessary to taze her.

Unfortunately, the voltage was just a bit too much for her fragile body to handle. Her brain literally imploded from the high voltage. She was buried next to her Mother.

All this happened in the middle of January. I lost my original love. I lost her when she lost herself.

I am reminded of this whenever I see a woman enjoying a snow cone.

Read I Have No Cologne

I'm reading "I Have No Cologne" - http://www.wattpad.com/story/3734555 - on the Wattpad app http://www.wattpad.com/download

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

To Live On Mars

I'd like to live on Mars someday. If only for a month. I'd run around the dunes and swim in its many lagoons. And if at all possible I'd construct a sturdy raft, sail down river and catch and cook martian fish.

I'd try to find a companion but if none can be found I will not complain about the lack of companionship. For I will be the one and only human to traverse the red planet! I'll set up camp near a martian forest and sleep underneath the martian sky.

From time to time I'll look up at Earth and her moon and wonder what foolishness I might be missing. Chances are I won't be missing anything too important. I shall appreciate my time on Mars. Perhaps I'll even start my own civilization of free thinking sand people. But I will not be their king. No I will NOT! They'll have to decide that amongst themselves.

But if the sand people insist... I shall be no more than a guide. I'll teach them how to speak, write and create art. It may sound like a monumental task but I'd feel up to the challenge. If such a task takes longer than a month to complete then I'd be willing to stay longer.

I won't teach them much about Earth or our history. Mostly because I believe it would be best for them to focus on themselves and nothing else for a good long while. But if they should ask I'll just point at some random stars and tell them that everyone else is way too far away. They might agree, they might not.

I do expect their curiosity to get the better of them. Though, I'll probably be long gone by then. I'll either be physically gone or spiritually gone. Either way I'll be gone.

I'll probably live on Mars someday but for now I live on Earth.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Hobbit

Had lunch with Mom today at Whataburger. We got two free apple pies just for completing some online survey. Then we went to see The Hobbit. It's a great movie. It's long but awesome. It would also help to have some kind of knowledge of the novel it is based on but not too necessary.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Boy With No Face (short story)

I'm reading "Boy With No Face" - http://www.wattpad.com/story/3687232 - on the Wattpad app http://www.wattpad.com/download

Ode To Nutella

This is
An
Ode
To
You
Sweet
Sweet
Nutella
You're chocolatey
Dreamy
And
Spread so easily
On everything
Anything
I admire
Your
Cocoa-esque
Candor
Please don't change
Your
Texture
Sweet
Sweet
Nutella

External Sun

The external must remain the external. At least that's what I tend to believe. If and when the sky changes shape and color will you not still be the same being you've always been? It is probable.

Every molecule and atom that holds us together was first forged within our Sun. That is a fact. You can look it up if you'd like to. I urge you to.

And when you do... you must never take the Sun for granted again. It gives us light. It gives us life. It gives us hope.

Re(cycle)incarnation

Everything/everyone is energy. Energy will always recycle itself. That, in essence, is reincarnation.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

It Is The Right Time

It is the right time to let go of all that egotistical bullshit that no longer serves your well being. Why do you insist on clinging to such outlandish negativity? Why do any of us cling to such nonsense?

Perhaps there is just some kind of deep rooted insecurity within us all that has yet to be acknowledged. It makes sense when you really think about it. So much of our leisure time is spent occupying our minds with numerous diversions that don't offer much in the way of self revelation.

Of course, there is nothing intrinsically wrong with diversions. But it is our tendency to succumb to them over and over that can be quite unfulfilling. How many gadgets can one own and achieve some level of lasting contentment with? There is no real answer to such a question. There is no answer because contentment cannot come from the external world. Everything we see before us is merely a byproduct of what we see and feel within ourselves.

Now, I know you're probably reading this and not understanding most of it or just brushing it off as some sort of insane rant. It doesn't matter either way because whatever you personally believe does not change the Universal Cycle that has been at work since the beginning of the beginning. It does sound like something an escaped mental patient would say but only because our limited perspective cannot quite yet handle the unfamiliar facts of our existence.

I write these words only to inform and enlighten you. It is ultimately up to YOU to choose your own fate. All I ask is that you choose wisely and enjoy yourself.

Scarf